Friday, December 20, 2013

Hunter at 15 Months

I say this every month... but how is my baby 15 months old?

Hunter at 15 months runs around everywhere! Including going up and down stairs safely (he knows that to go down he needs to get on his but and craw down backwards). He has not seemed to learn any new words over the last month and sadly he stopped saying mama! BOOOOO.

In the last month he has really started to LOVE dancing. if a commercial comes on with music he will stop whatever he is doing and will dance to it. He even has some good moves!

He was introduced to both Goldfish and ELMO this month... now his two favorite things...

He also oddly LOVES to get into this little Chic costume every morning to eat his Cherrios before heading over to NaNa's House...

He thinks that it is super funny when his big sister wears the costume

Hunter still currently has 4 top teeth and 2 bottom teeth but we think that a few more bottom teeth will be making an appearance any day now... he had a little fever this week, his appetite has decreased, and he has been a bit grumpy which is a good indication that something is going on in that little mouth of his.

Now here are some photos of Hunter from this week:

He fell in Love with this tomato container and laughs like crazy as he chases Sophie around! Guess I didn't need to spend all of that money on Christmas gifts. 

Sophie just goes with it... She is so good with Hunter

We also love all the bubble wrap that has been coming in the packages!

He loves that Mommy has been going into work later and that he gets to have cuddle time in the morning! 

Wednesday, December 18, 2013

25 Weeks with Baby #3

How far along? 25 weeks
Total weight gain/measurements: 24 Lbs...

Maternity clothes: yup... 

Stretch marks? Nope... fingers still crossed on this one
Sleep: Doing okay... by the end of the day all energy is drained so I feel like I fall right to sleep. Also, not waking up in the middle of the night as much probably because I'm just too sleepy. Also, my work situation has changed so when I do wake up I'm able to fall right back to sleep because I'm no longer dreaming about a long to-do list

Best moment this week: SNOW... Emma had two days off from school last week, our annual Christmas Party (Seeing some great friends is always a plus), Brunch with Santa! 

Miss anything? Not really.
Movement: Frequent... but not as powerful as Hunter was at this point. 
Food cravings: Just fruit snacks... I've been stress eating the last few weeks. 
Anything making you queasy or sick? Nope!
Gender: Boy!
Labor signs: Some SMALL Braxton Hicks contractions. It's a little early for these but I think it is probably due to stress and not drinking enough water. 
Symptoms: Back Pain. 
Belly button in or out? In!
Wedding rings on or off? On!
Happy or moody most of the time: Still a little moody... Mainly by the end of the night. As I shared Monday... I'm in a bit of a slump.

Looking forward to: Going to Tysons Galleria on Thursday this week as that is where the REAL Santa is according to Emma... So heads up, if you want to run into the real Santa you have to come up to Northern Virginia...  

My amazing friend Holly is taking me out on Wednesday night!

 and Look I finally bought a few things for the baby! Now the guy will have something of his own.... Rock Star themed and all.

Here I was at 25 weeks with Hunter Man

Tuesday, December 17, 2013

Hint Hint Santa

Just in case Santa is wondering what to stick in my stocking this year...

1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11

Monday, December 16, 2013

Unmotivated... Pregnancy slump

Sorry for the lack of posts in really the last month... It’s not for lack of trying! I'm just unmotivated! Yes... I'm willing to admit that I, Julie Marie Park, am completely unmotivated at the moment. Things have been going on in our crazy busy lives but I haven't blogged or even taken photos of things... I'm just totally slacking!

Pregnancy Slump???
Part of me feels like it is a third pregnancy slump... When it comes to Baby Boy #2 I've just hit a wall mentally and emotionally. I haven't truly put a lot of thoughts into a name, I came up with the theme for his room but since that time I haven't lifted a finger to actually implement the plan, and I haven't even bought the little man any clothes of his own.

It also pains me to admit that I'm not that excited and I feel like that makes me a horrible person. Last pregnancy I was in pain but it all seemed so worth it and I was so excited because Matt and I had tried for 9 months to get preggers and I was just so excited about every little kick and just carrying his baby made even the pain okay.... this time I'm just over it. At the end of the day I feel defeated. The pain seems worse (even though I'm sure it is the same... I'm just negative about it this time around) and I am just not getting any joy from being pregnant. I fear that a new baby will disrupt our delicate balance in our home life and I worry how Hunter will react to having a new little one around.

Just so unexcited... and that kills me. Is it because we didn't try and try for this baby? is it because I didn't long and wish for it crying every time I took a negative pregnancy test after months of trying? With this pregnancy it all just sort of happened and in the beginning I have to admit that I wasn't even happy about being pregnant because it just wasn't the right time. But now I'm fine with it... what a horrible thing to say... I don't want to just be fine with the fact that we are going to welcome a new life into this world! I want to be bouncing off the walls excited! I want to pick out paint colors for his room, buy a guitar for his wall, and find that one perfect coming home outfit... but after 25 weeks of being pregnant I'm just not there yet. I'M STILL JUST FINE... maybe it's just hormones or fear in the unknown... but I want out of whatever this is.

This isn't something that I've talked about openly with any of my friends really or even Matt because I do feel so ashamed of my lack of excitement but I wanted to be honest on here... because isn't that what a blog is for? A place to reflect on life... even if that life is a bit messy at the moment. I just have to remember that not everything is perfect 100% of the time.